Sedated | #AtoZChallenge

When the numbness takes over, I find myself sitting in room after room with only clocks for company.

I never think about it, but I never let myself forget.

We died. We are no more. We went up in flames.

Never you. We.

It hurts less that way.

It tears me up from within and turns me inside out.

But it hurts less that way.



Hi everyone! I’m working on a minimalist fiction project for this year’s #AtoZChallenge. The story will be shared in snippets, and the events occur non-sequentially. It is for the reader to interpret and form the “whole”. You can read all the posts here. Join me, and do share links to your AtoZ posts as well!


Alternative titles: Anesthetize. I also considered Stay High, but it’s a different genre and doesn’t fit in with the theme.


30 thoughts on “Sedated | #AtoZChallenge

  1. Shilpa Garg April 22, 2017 / 9:55 AM

    Ah! That’s sad! I agree with her, it would certainly hurt less that way!
    Lovely writing, Sreesha!!

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  2. vishalbheeroo April 22, 2017 / 1:00 PM

    Profound and very intense words.Sometimes, the hurt is subsided so that person doesn’t face self-inflicted harm. It matters a lot.

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  3. Kaddu April 22, 2017 / 6:27 PM

    ‘We’ is correct. Because when we lose someone we love that much, we also lose a part of our soul. And we are never the same person again.

    So beautifully conveyed in so few words.
    Loved it once again, Sreesha.

    Happy AtoZing!
    Chicky @

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 24, 2017 / 10:12 AM

      So right, Chicky. We’re never the same person again.

      Thanks for reading 🙂


    • Sreesha Divakaran April 24, 2017 / 10:13 AM

      In so many ways, our personalities undergo a change just to make peace with what has happened.
      Thanks for reading, Rosh.


  4. Louise April 22, 2017 / 8:53 PM

    The death of “we” – yes. These are getting sadder as we move forward. I find myself hoping we rally a bit in the last week 🙂

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 24, 2017 / 10:14 AM

      I think you’ll find a mix of both happy and sad posts – but then, the story has almost reached the end 🙂

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  5. Soumya (@soumyaprasad) April 22, 2017 / 9:31 PM

    Ah, this brings back a feeling that I’d hidden deep. Really deep. Sadly, it still hurts as much.

    But yeah when we dies instead of a you, it hurts less.

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  6. Reema D'souza April 22, 2017 / 9:49 PM

    “We died” That is so true! How do you do this everyday? There is magic in your words!

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  7. swathishenoy April 23, 2017 / 7:25 AM

    We is the word. You lose a part of you when you lose someone special. Now I have to wait like everyone else for the next posts! Enjoyed reading so far 🙂

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  8. Rajlakshmi April 24, 2017 / 3:44 AM

    That’s a very lonely setting… Loved the part about clocks for company. Some pretty awesome expressions here.

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  9. Pikakshi April 24, 2017 / 10:44 PM

    ‘We’ is the most important part.. be it the loss of a relationship over a break up or the loss of an individual because of death, we loose a part of us with them.
    You used lovely words again to create magic in a small space. Loved the post!

    Social stigmas are a bane for our societies. Lets not give in.

    Readers of the Night

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 27, 2017 / 8:34 AM

      It’s recovering that part that we lost that’s the hardest bit.

      Thank you, Pikakshi 🙂

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  10. Vidya Sury April 25, 2017 / 10:31 PM

    But no matter what, “not thinking about it” is an illusion because the memories rush in when you least expect them to. It is just easier to feel numb. Well steered, Sreesha! Hugs!

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  11. sanchwrites May 7, 2017 / 6:54 AM

    The numbness oozes through this one and sends chills down my spine

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  12. Anmol Rawat May 19, 2017 / 11:27 AM

    That reference to clocks! I wonder if that loneliness is essential and makes you learn several things.

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    • Sreesha Divakaran May 29, 2017 / 7:53 AM

      Perhaps… The clocks reference was a metaphor for all of it. Guess we do learn certain things that way 🙂


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