Like A Stone | #AtoZChallenge

Often, I can accurately remember which year a particular event occurred, and if my brain’s feeling particularly sharp, even which month. An annoying habit that I can’t help. Or useful, if that’s what you’re going for.

It’s easy when every year has an identifier. A highlight. In childhood, it was the year I learnt to sing or the year I learnt the alphabet.

It’s when the years blur into one that my mind refuses to tell the timelines apart. Did the trip to the beach happen this year or the one before? Did Kate’s wedding take place two years ago or four?

You could say I’m on a train, one of those super-fast ones, and I’m sitting in my sea of calm. The scenery and the landscape constantly change, but I don’t move. And somewhere, many miles later, it dawns on me, the knowledge of lost time. The wasted moments.

Has it been like that for you?

I wake up to a text from you. All those lost days, all that time, all of it, comes crashing down to the tips of my fingers in one instant. In my haste, I’m unsure of what comes pouring out – so much of what I’d held back during these blurred timelines. The long lonely months dissolve, as I’m back in the moment where we were, where the nightmares hadn’t begun. I expect the same from you.

Mistakenly. Prematurely.

I learn it hasn’t been like that for you at all. I try to recollect, once again, how much time has passed. It seems longer and shorter when time is a dull band. When you want to count time by moments and can’t recollect any – time seems to have rushed past you, and at the same time it hasn’t moved at all. I think of the moving train again, how I absentmindedly noted day changing to night. Flashes of grey stars behind night-lacquered leaves make fleeting appearances in my mind.

I have been still this whole time. The world has been moving on.

And you have turned into someone I don’t recognize anymore.

 


Hi everyone! I’m working on a minimalist fiction project for this year’s #AtoZChallenge. The story will be shared in snippets, and the events occur non-sequentially. It is for the reader to interpret and form the “whole”. You can read all the posts here. Join me, and do share links to your AtoZ posts as well!

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Alternative title I considered: Late Goodbye

A version of post was shared on my Instagram page a while back.

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44 thoughts on “Like A Stone | #AtoZChallenge

  1. Ravish Mani April 14, 2017 / 7:14 AM

    Sreesha, you aptly used the word stone to represent absentminded stillness. The beauty of your stories is they aren’t declarative. You make sure that the readers get involved in the plot. Your stories are food for thoughts.

    It often happens in relationship that after sometime you ask this question with yourself whether you’re blind or the person has changed. Ekta, author of Let Go of Me, beautifully resolved the dilemma: “Well, if you ask me, neither were you blind and nor has he changed. The place from where you are viewing him has changed and possibly just that has changed.”

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 17, 2017 / 8:12 AM

      You’re right, that’s a point I plan to cover in the Reflections post.

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  2. Vidya Sury April 14, 2017 / 11:04 AM

    I remembered a song when I read your post: Since the last goodbye by the Alan Parsons Project. I like that group–lots of nostalgic memories with each song! Your post is very visual for me (also, I have an overactive mind). I feel her feelings with the tinge of sadness, and maybe some regret? Waiting for the next.

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 14, 2017 / 2:43 PM

      Couldn’t listen to the song since I’m at work, but checked out the lyrics. So beautiful! Wow!

      Regret, yes, definitely, not just for what she lost in the K post, but also for the time she lost that she really didn’t have to.

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    • Vidya Sury April 14, 2017 / 2:46 PM

      That’s the sad thing about relationships we treasure. Regrets :-)..that needn’t have been there in the first place.

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    • Vidya Sury April 17, 2017 / 11:05 AM

      No plugging there. I am glad you showed me the post. Exactly a year after you wrote it. I loved it, and uncomfortably swallowed several times as I read it. Thank you!

      Please do listen to the song. Now every time I listen to it, I’ll think of you and associate it with this AtoZ. My music is always tightly intermeshed with memories and nostalgia. (and of course regrets 🙂 )

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 18, 2017 / 8:02 AM

      Didn’t realize it’s been exactly a year! That post is a favorite of mine. The post against which I measure all my other posts, so to speak. So glad you liked it!

      As they say, there’s a story behind every favorite song 🙂 Love you, V! ❤ Muah

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  3. aslifehappens60 April 14, 2017 / 2:15 PM

    Did they get back together again after the initial break? I know you can’t disclose at this point. Will wait .😊
    Best wishes
    Moon

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 14, 2017 / 2:44 PM

      Hehe, I like it when this question is asked. But then your answer is in the C post. Do you really think them getting back together is a good idea? 🙂

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    • aslifehappens60 April 14, 2017 / 7:03 PM

      I don’t know about that, Sreesha. All i can say, especially after reading the “c” again is i feel for your protagonist . Deeply.

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  4. Menaka Bharathi April 14, 2017 / 5:53 PM

    Your writings are really good…This actually made me sad 😦 I mean we can seriously feel the sadness in your writings

    Launching SIM Organics This April
    *Menaka Bharathi *
    *SimpleIndianMom*

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  5. Namratha Varadharajan April 14, 2017 / 5:56 PM

    People never love each other equally(like to the exact same measurement), and they move on also at different paces. It’s always so much more difficult for the one who is left behind. But is she? I would love to have one episode from his perspective. About what he is actually going through. Not what he portrays through a text.

    Celebrating ‘Women & their work’ all April @NamySaysSo K for Kitchen Queen

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 17, 2017 / 8:20 AM

      It’s interesting you’d say that, Namy, cos I got the idea for this (minimalist) format from a book, and one of my main grouses with it in the beginning was that we were only seeing one side of the story. At the time, I felt it was unfair, but I later realized that since it’s the narrator’s tale, he can talk about it however he wishes. So I employed the same technique. That said, I’d be open to a collab project where alternate chapters are from his POV 😀

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  6. Emily Bloomquist April 14, 2017 / 7:07 PM

    You do a great job of pulling me into your stories in a short time. I would also be interested in Namratha’s idea of an episode from his perspective.

    Emily | My Life In Ecuador | Latitude Zero

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 17, 2017 / 8:21 AM

      Thanks, Emily! I’d love to do a collab project in that case if I find someone interested in doing it 🙂

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  7. Dr Roshan R (@pythoroshan) April 14, 2017 / 7:48 PM

    Are you in my head? That first half were thoughts that I had very recently… well, I’ve seen many moments in this series that made me feel that way, now that I think of it.
    SORCERER!!

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 17, 2017 / 8:22 AM

      Probably cos of the haphazard, no-sequence structure. Hopefully it’ll all tie up in the end 🙂

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  8. Louise April 15, 2017 / 4:08 AM

    I enjoyed the description of differently viewing time – both between people and between different life stages. This one left me … a bit anxious for badness coming. Nicely done.

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  9. Shilpa Garg April 15, 2017 / 7:08 AM

    This is a beautiful expression, Sreesha, so poetic!
    Just wanted to know whether you have already written the complete story?

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 17, 2017 / 8:25 AM

      I still have a few more chapters to write. The Z post is done, but there are a lot of gaps in between. Quite a few times, I edited entire chapters just a few minutes before they went live, so can’t really say if I’ll even keep Z as it is 😀

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  10. Lalita April 15, 2017 / 3:25 PM

    The train and sea metaphor gave me goosebumps. You are mixing all kind of awesome colors into these little drops of inky magic.

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 17, 2017 / 8:26 AM

      Isn’t it? The things life teaches you!

      Thanks for reading, Sanch!

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  11. Shalzz April 17, 2017 / 7:53 PM

    You like writing on heartbreaks, right? Well, you are so good at it 🙂

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  12. Modern Gypsy April 17, 2017 / 11:46 PM

    Oh this is so sad. One person moves on, another clings to a memory. One person changes, another goes through life in a blur….

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 18, 2017 / 8:04 AM

      Story of our lives though, in some ways…
      Thanks for reading, Jini!

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  13. Anmol Rawat April 20, 2017 / 10:57 PM

    Has it been like that for you?

    This is probably the most irritating question in one’s mind. Glad that your character actually knows the truth. But it would have hurt so much, right?

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 21, 2017 / 8:26 AM

      Ah Anmol, I hope you never have the bad luck to find out how much that hurt… 🙂 Like, ever.

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  14. swathishenoy April 23, 2017 / 7:04 AM

    I like the way you play with words so effortlessly. Will she ever hear from him?

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 24, 2017 / 9:41 AM

      Yes, she does. She gets a text from him many, many months after the events in K.

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