Demons | #AtoZChallenge

Our fingers had their own memories – they found each other and got entwined without us noticing. We were sitting in our spot, those grey concrete stairs, no words being exchanged. I was thinking of a time before you.

“You’re too ugly to be seen with.”
“Boring.”
“Why do people call you funny? You’re not.”

You know the people who attack you with remarks on every insecurity you’ve ever lived with? Who prey on those insecurities because they know how it affects you? Who remind you of things you try to forget as you tell yourself you’re stronger than that? Before you, my life was a who’s who of people like that. Their caustic remarks were what I had always lived with, what I believed about myself.

Remember the day when we were watching cartoons on TV? I said something about a Tom and Jerry cartoon I’d seen, about how raw and brutal it would be if it weren’t a cartoon? It should have been disturbing – giving such a gory angle to a children’s show, but you laughed and told me I was the funniest girl you knew. You laughed on and off for the rest of the day because you were still thinking about what I said.

On another day, we ran into one of your friends, the DJ who played at your favorite pub, and also at, we later learned, my favorite pub. When you introduced me to him, there was unmistakable pride in your voice. Not vanity, like you were showing me off. But an acknowledgement. That I meant something. That I wasn’t someone you minded being seen with.

You restored some parts of me on those days; parts that others had ruined or robbed.

I don’t like comparisons. Comparing you with anyone else is an insult to what we share, even if you’re coming out looking better. But then, I wanted to know myself through your eyes. I wanted to trust you the way my fingers trusted yours.

If anyone could allay my fears and doubts, it was you. This I knew with conviction.

Comparisons had nothing to do with that.


 

Hi everyone! I’m working on a minimalist fiction project for this year’s #AtoZChallenge. The story will be shared in snippets, and the events occur non-sequentially. It is for the reader to interpret and form the “whole”. You can read all the posts here. Join me, and do share links to your AtoZ posts as well!

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62 thoughts on “Demons | #AtoZChallenge

  1. Louise April 5, 2017 / 6:56 AM

    So this one makes me happier after the story at letter C. Hooray for the people who build us up and make us comfortable in our own skin.

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 5, 2017 / 12:16 PM

      If you go by the sequence of events, this happened before what happened in A, B, and C. I’ve placed this at D to illustrate how they used to be and bring out that difference.
      Thanks for reading! 🙂 Indeed, hurray for such people!

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    • Louise April 5, 2017 / 4:22 PM

      Okay – so now I’m a bit sad about her again. Should she take the cat and make a run for it? This is fun to read.

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  2. Modern Gypsy April 5, 2017 / 8:16 AM

    Ah, a silver lining! Is this before the incidents in the C post or after, I wonder? The romantic in me hopes it’s after!

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 5, 2017 / 12:18 PM

      This happened before (I hate to break the heart of the romantic in you by admitting this…). If you connect it to the last line of the previous post, you’ll see a bit of the connection.

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  3. aslifehappens60 April 5, 2017 / 9:32 AM

    As beautiful as writing could get. Awesome story .:) I love the rejuvenating power of love.

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  4. Shailaja V April 5, 2017 / 9:57 AM

    I’m guessing this is before what happened in C. What I love about these snippets is they can so easily stand on their own as flash fiction pieces and yet tie together in a larger whole.Perhaps that’s what life is all about, isn’t it? A stitched-together tapestry of experiences and we rarely remember them in a linear manner anyway. The authenticity in this series is raw and so appealing.

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 5, 2017 / 12:23 PM

      Yup, this happened before C.
      That was precisely my intention in sharing this non-sequentially. I did try going the chronological route at first, with the other story I had in mind (Unsent Letters), but in the end I think I’m glad I chose this one.

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  5. Kalpanaa April 5, 2017 / 11:29 AM

    This part of your minimalist fiction really warmed my heart. I don’t know if I want to guess the sequence of the story, if at all there is a timeline. I want these two to be so in love and trust for ever.
    Despair #Lexicon of Leaving

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 5, 2017 / 12:26 PM

      There is a timeline, but I’m not sharing it in sequence. I wish I could grant you that, but then you did read the C post 🙂 But stay tuned! 😀

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  6. Shilpa Garg April 5, 2017 / 11:43 AM

    Ah! This part of the story is so beautiful. I am still smiling at “Our fingers had their own memories.” I believe that this is the initial part of their love story though wish that it was towards the end 🙂

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 5, 2017 / 12:29 PM

      Yes, this happened much before whatever happened in C (not revealing anything more than that)
      How I wish it were so! But I’m not saying yes or no. Stay tuned 🙂 🙂

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  7. Anmol Rawat (@authoranmol) April 5, 2017 / 12:33 PM

    Now that you have hooked me and since I did not know it was a series, I would have to go back and read the previous ones. This one was wonderful!

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 5, 2017 / 1:55 PM

      Thank you so much! I’m not sharing the story in sequence, so you can read in any order 🙂

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 6, 2017 / 10:15 AM

      Yes we are, Menaka 🙂
      This part of the story happened much before the events in C. Stay tuned for the rest! 🙂

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  8. swathishenoy April 5, 2017 / 2:21 PM

    They were so right together. Why, oh why, did they part ways? What happened to them? So many questions!
    I loved the tom and jerry analogy.

    Doctors and Dentists

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 6, 2017 / 10:17 AM

      Ooh, this comment puts daggers through my heart! 😀
      Wait.. We’ll get to what happened to them in just a few episodes of this (currently untitled) show 😀

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  9. Sid Balachandran April 5, 2017 / 3:31 PM

    Just dropping a line to tell you that I am reading. Will reserve my comments and discussion till I read the entire thing. Good going so far.

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 6, 2017 / 10:20 AM

      Yay, you’re reading! I really wanted you to read this! Will wait for what you have to say at the end 😀

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  10. debscarey April 5, 2017 / 3:50 PM

    I’ve also been reading and reserving comments until later, but this one made me break cover. The opening lining .. oh the pathos. And perfect placement after yesterday’s post.

    Bunny and the Bloke

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 6, 2017 / 10:22 AM

      So glad you’ve been following the story so far! 🙂

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  11. Dipanwita April 5, 2017 / 4:00 PM

    Brilliant! Negative people suck the confidence out of others and never fail at a chance of demeaning them.

    Loved the way you have weaved the story.

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 6, 2017 / 10:27 AM

      While this story is fiction, I’ve met my fair share of the kind I’ve mentioned here! 🙂
      Glad you liked it!

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  12. Titli s April 5, 2017 / 6:39 PM

    Must feel a ray of sunshine to have a person like this in one’s life! esp. after being surrounded by negativity the entire life. Lovely weave.

    Shubhangi @ The Little Princess

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  13. Mithila Menezes April 5, 2017 / 9:20 PM

    Demons is my favourite song ever. And this post is so damn relatable!

    Ever since I’ve had braces, I’ve been a bit self-conscious about the way I look and talk. But after a point I realised that people were going to laugh at my inability to speak properly for as long as I had my braces, so why bother? I’d rather talk, eat and let people see the cabbage stuck in my teeth without giving a damn. But before this realisation set in my mind, I did feel exactly the way your protagonist feels.

    P.S.: That cabbage bit was a hyperbole 🙈

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 6, 2017 / 10:39 AM

      I know, it’s such a beautiful (and seriously underrated) song!

      You know you’re really mature for your age (I bet you get that a lot). For me, it took years to stop feeling conscious about how I look; I think like mid to late 20s is when I realized I shouldn’t really care about how people see me. I think I hit peak awesome when I got to that point of realization and acceptance 😀 😛 😛 (That said, I still have major problems when I see a camera focused at me)

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  14. Lalita April 5, 2017 / 9:44 PM

    “And at the dark end of this bar
    What a beautiful wreck you are
    When you go too far, beautiful wreck you are” . I feel all our darkness needs a place to heal, and that healing is life long…because so is our darkness.

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  15. Parul Thakur April 5, 2017 / 10:14 PM

    Lovely! We all need people in our lives who don’t make comparisons but help us be a better version of oursleves. Such a heart-warming piece.

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  16. inquisitivegeet April 5, 2017 / 10:52 PM

    Making comparisons is the best way to sabotage a relationship! And it is expressed here, so beautifully! I really loved this snippet !

    Cheers
    BoisterousBee

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  17. Tina Basu April 5, 2017 / 11:01 PM

    Negative people are demons in a way. Great post.

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 7, 2017 / 8:10 AM

      We do. Essentially human beings, no matter how asocial or whatever they are, need other human beings. The kind of people who are *right* for them.

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  18. sanchwrites April 6, 2017 / 4:43 PM

    Beautifully woven again…it’s so nice that the protagonist has someone to fill up those empty holes and to validate them. On a side note, I love Demons by Imagine Dragons! 🙂

    Diamante – Lifespan

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  19. Mayuri Nidigallu April 6, 2017 / 9:13 PM

    I am getting all mushy as I read your posts, Sreesha! Hope you will be converting them into an ebook!

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 7, 2017 / 8:12 AM

      Aw thanks, Mayuri. Not too sure about the ebook, cos I feel it’ll be a damn skinny book…

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  20. BellyBytes April 6, 2017 / 10:13 PM

    Like the way this is playing out…..can’t wait to piece it together

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  21. Vidya Sury April 6, 2017 / 10:40 PM

    So gentle, after the first three. Everyone yearns to find that person who totally gets them. Talking of cartoon-brutal, most classic nursery rhymes were violent too!
    Hugs, Sreesha!

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    • Sreesha Divakaran April 7, 2017 / 8:15 AM

      I’ve read some origin stories of nursery rhymes and even fairy tales. They were gorefests! Strange isn’t it, that those are the first things that are taught to us in schools!

      Hugs to you too, my sweets ❤

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